Wow.

.....I did not have any idea that Thanksgiving was going to be so hard! Being a single woman during the holidays is not really what is so hard. The single mother part is much more difficult. I have always dreamed of having a big huge thanksgiving dinner with my husband, and children and in-laws/parents. Spending that day, together, as a family is what I have always longed for. My heart hurts for my boys. That they don't have a father that is willing to spend more than 20 minutes with them per week.
My praise is that they do have PLENTY of other family members, aunts, uncles, cousins, grandparents and their momma that love them SOOOO much and shower them with affection. I pray that our heavenly Father will fill that void that has been left.
My sadness has made me feel like I am spiraling down that awful depression spiral that I know so well. Know that I am fighting it with everything that I am. God is holding me up and keeping me from falling. It is a struggle but I am ok. I rest in the fact that God will take care of us/me.
As much as I want to crawl into a hole and just stay there until the storm passes, I know that is not possible, that storm will still be there when I come out. So, I stay, with God as my umbrella and I wait it out. I will focus my energy and thoughts on praising God for all that he has done, and is doing and will do. I am so thankful for my family and friends, without you guys I am not sure where I would be. As 1 Corinthians 10:13 says, God will not allow more into our lives than we can handle. I know that even even if I feel like it is more than I can handle, it is not, and God will carry the burden for me.
I choose to be filled with joy and praise, just like God instructs me to be. I would appreciate any prayers for me to remain joyful and reliant on God. My prayer is simple:

Father God, I know that you are in control and that you are holding me, Hayden and Tyler right in the palm of your hand. Please give me the energy and the will to stay in Your word and reside in your will. Lord, I pray that you bless everyone of my friends and family so much that their mouths drop wide open. Thank you so much for placing such wonderful, loving, caring and inspirational people in my life.

Thank you everyone for all that you do for me!!! Words can not express how much I love you all!!!

S