ok.....I found it again!!!

Ok, So a lot has changed that I am not able to discuss at this time...but lets make a VERY long story kinda short.....Since that last post.....Divorced Greg, yes again....hooked back up with Wade, whom I dated about 10 years back. We discovered that we really still love each other and always have so we got married on June 27th, 2008. And that is the incredibly short version......I about peed myself reading some of my old posts....laughing because of that old drama and also at just how dadgum long it has been since I was ever on here!!! Thanks to Olivia, I remembered I even had this!!!!! So funny!!!!

Blessings to anyone that made it this far.....
Sarah

And we are back.........=)

OK I know, I know it has been about 6 months since I updated this thing. Lots of stuff has been going on with us!!!
Greg and I are re-married and doing well. The boys are growing like weeds and into everything!
We are in the process of doing some remodeling on the house, nothing really huge, just minor things that need to be updated. I guess the biggest thing is replacing the counter tops. That is what I am the most excited about too!!! Don't get me wrong, I am very excited about getting the bathrooms done as well. That will relieve so much of my anxiety issues. Any of you that know me at all and know the issues I have with the bathrooms the way they are, you will totally understand. We will be doing a lot of painting too, so anyone interested in helping with that, just let me know!!! =)

Well, I know it has been a while and there is a lot to catch you all up on, but I am so limited on time at the moment with my new job at Terminix! I will NOT allow so much time to pass before I update again. Thank you E for reminding me about this thing!!!! Here are a couple of pictures of the munchkins and Greg and I when we got remarried!

Love you all!

S

I like to move it, move it!

Not really.....Moving is no fun. However, unpacking is pretty alright!!
We got all moved in and mostly unpacked. Still working on laundry.....it is never ending.
Tyler is going to be ONE on Friday. I am so sad and happy and excited and mad all at the same time. Then Hayden will be THREE in a month. Lots of parties and lots of toys!
Tyler is trying to start walking, he is just lazy (like me) and crawling is so much easier at this point. Hayden is talking very well, he is 2 going on 15. I have such wonderful boys that keep me very entertained.
We had a good Christmas, lots more toys...............they are happy though, its just more to clean up.....oh well, its a part of the job description. Hayden's favorite was his little trampoline. Tyler likes it too. Here is a picture of them playing together on it.
Well, I hope everyone has a wonderful and blessed new year!!! I love you all!!!

S

Today.

I have been listening to some sermons and came across something I wanted to share with everyone.
Instead of the question "if you died tonight, do you know that you would go to heaven?"the real question is "if you don't die tonight, and happen to wake up in the morning, do you have the hope and confidence of a power source that will enable you to live triumphantly tomorrow?"

Wow.....I have that hope and confidence, but do I live triumphantly? So many people don't have that hope and confidence, yet I have it and don't take advantage of it?? Living triumphantly is not a goal or a destination, it is a constant pursuit. (thanks Sandy).....It is a road we travel in life. It is not allowing the enemy to hold you in the bad places, in the muck and the dirt. Rather it is allowing God to lift you out of those places (every day and every minute in necessary) and live within you! True hope, confidence and happiness can only be found with Christ within you. Instead of allowing the worldly devices to meet your needs, allow God to meet all of those needs and then you will find true, everlasting happiness.

Heavenly Father I pray for everyone that I know that they will find true happiness in you!!!

S

Its just about time!!!!

Ok, I am so very nervous, excited and scared! Buying a house!!!! WOW!

Thanks to my beautiful sister, I am pretty much packed up. We are going to get the kitchen done tonight and the rest of the odds and ends. I can't wait to have a HOUSE of my own!!!

I thank you all in advance for the help and support you are, have and are going to be giving us!!! I love you all so very much!!!

That is all for now. I just wanted to drop a line and let everyone know that we are ok!!!!

Have a good week!!

S

Wow.

.....I did not have any idea that Thanksgiving was going to be so hard! Being a single woman during the holidays is not really what is so hard. The single mother part is much more difficult. I have always dreamed of having a big huge thanksgiving dinner with my husband, and children and in-laws/parents. Spending that day, together, as a family is what I have always longed for. My heart hurts for my boys. That they don't have a father that is willing to spend more than 20 minutes with them per week.
My praise is that they do have PLENTY of other family members, aunts, uncles, cousins, grandparents and their momma that love them SOOOO much and shower them with affection. I pray that our heavenly Father will fill that void that has been left.
My sadness has made me feel like I am spiraling down that awful depression spiral that I know so well. Know that I am fighting it with everything that I am. God is holding me up and keeping me from falling. It is a struggle but I am ok. I rest in the fact that God will take care of us/me.
As much as I want to crawl into a hole and just stay there until the storm passes, I know that is not possible, that storm will still be there when I come out. So, I stay, with God as my umbrella and I wait it out. I will focus my energy and thoughts on praising God for all that he has done, and is doing and will do. I am so thankful for my family and friends, without you guys I am not sure where I would be. As 1 Corinthians 10:13 says, God will not allow more into our lives than we can handle. I know that even even if I feel like it is more than I can handle, it is not, and God will carry the burden for me.
I choose to be filled with joy and praise, just like God instructs me to be. I would appreciate any prayers for me to remain joyful and reliant on God. My prayer is simple:

Father God, I know that you are in control and that you are holding me, Hayden and Tyler right in the palm of your hand. Please give me the energy and the will to stay in Your word and reside in your will. Lord, I pray that you bless everyone of my friends and family so much that their mouths drop wide open. Thank you so much for placing such wonderful, loving, caring and inspirational people in my life.

Thank you everyone for all that you do for me!!! Words can not express how much I love you all!!!

S

HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!!

My Lord, where did the year go????? I can not believe it is already the end of November!!!!

Well, I suppose it is time to start pep talking my itty bitty stomach into a nice big turkey day celebration! This time of year is when I almost regret having had surgery. I don't really regret it, I just miss being able to stuff myself silly around the holidays.
On the same token, I went to the sleep doctor yesterday and I have lost 15 pounds in one month! I told the nurse, stress can work wonders for weight loss!!!
I have Idiopathic Hypersomnia......yeah, that is what I said.....basically, I don't ever get REM sleep at night so I am tired all day. If I nap during the day, I don't feel rested or refreshed, I actually feel worse than I did before the nap. It is a life long thing managed by meds. We will see how that all works out!
I am just glad to know why I am so tired all of the time!

The volunteer movers position is still open to anyone who wants it! =o) We will probably do all the moving on 12/16!!! Please just let me know!!!!

Gotta run!!!

S